Ever since this whole ordeal began people have been telling me to stay strong. But, what does that even mean? Is staying strong crying out in pain in the middle of the night? Is staying strong grinding your teeth over every little bump your wheelchair crosses over, because it sends vibrations rocketing up your kneecap? Or is staying strong taking refuge from the pain and grief with God and those surrounding you with their love? To stay strong is not trying to find your rock. It's finding your foundations in those who support you.
In Judges the Bible tells of a man named Gideon. In Gideon's tale the Israelites are constantly being supressed and mistreated by invaders as punishment for their sins. Finally, God decides that enough is enough and decides to use Gideon, the least powerful man in the smallest tribe, to drive out these invaders. But, Gideon tried to first use his own strength to expel them and failed miserably. He tried to do things his own way and got kicked to the curb because of it. He then realizes that it's only possible with God fighting alongside him. And so with God's helping hand and only three hundred men he was able to expel the invaders for good. This story shows that with God all things are possible and I am learning this fact more and more everyday. I started like Gideon, but lately with alot of pain and grief it's become crystal clear. God is using this experience to teach me and those I love how to live our life with God.