(Sorry this post took so long everybody. I was really busy just getting admitted into the hospital and preparing for treatment.)
Show time is today. There's no more prep time. Regardless of the fact that all my ducks might not be in a row, the journey begins now. The side effects will be torterous, but I will push through. This is what I must tell myself. And due to God's work this thought is becoming more and more of a fact to me everyday. Someone with lots of experience with my predicament once told me that to get through this I would need to get mean. And that's exactly what I plan to do. But, I am not prepared, I know at least that much. How can anyone truly be prepared the first time around though? Hearing the probable and possible side effects is enough to leave one weak kneed. I myself grew emotional when I heard the totality of side effects from my trio of treatments. This is all before treatment even starts too. If one's foundation is strong enough, though, then they will make it through stronger than ever. And my foundation is rock solid. My family, my friends, my Savior, and people I've never even met before are all pouring out their love, and let me tell you, it's like a flood. It's overwhelming too see all the support that seems come from everywhere. This is how I know I'll make it through. The say that the first round of chemo is the hardest. Well, first round of chemo, here I come with everyone behind me.